再時，已經閉睛。

回到公寓洗完澡，衛威廉打開冰箱。目啤酒瓶頓頓，然後拿旁邊礦泉。

發，發會兒呆，也沒麼。時候聽聽遠處馬傳來車聲，時候留隔壁銀麼動靜，時候又隻單純放空自己。

然後，拿起筆記本電腦，打開郵箱，打算寫封郵件——

“dearfather，

ihavebeenwellbackcha，butialbegantofeelalittlenfed

icabackbecaeihaddisveredyfather’sillegitiatechildandwasworriedaboutyother，ialsawyfailyihadn’tseenyears

atfirstithoughtiwasissgthe，butthetruthisnotlikethatianotsureydecisiontogobackisworthit

itoldyouiwascuredofybipordirder，andican’tdrkanyoreoneweekago，idrankalholagastywill

ianotsureifitwasthedrkgthatcaedydepression

butiastillactivelysearchgforanswersylife，asyoutoldbefore

itawoanwhoseexperiencesweredifferentbutwhosefeelgswerestranlysiir

tis，ifeellikeiaherandsheis

weallhavethesaprobles，andweneedtobeostscereandexpresswhatwereallythk

shechosepatience，butifeltshewasunhappy

ihavealwaysbelievedthattheonlywaytobehappyistoexpressyourselfhonestly，becaeithelpsotherstoknowtherealyou

，iwanttoakeadifferentchoicefroher

tenyearsago，wheniwasateenar，itriedtoexpressyselfhonestly，butiwasiatureandara，itwasn’treallyanhonestexpressionofyself

aftertenyears，ihavebeatureandrational

ifitryaga，willitbeasiexpect

father，prayfor，please！

ww”

衛威廉點擊保，讓像以寫給神父無數封電子郵件樣，靜靜躺進稿箱裡。